i love you, i love you not.

for every girl with a broken heart, there's a boy with a glue gun.

if that were true, 

I don't think life would be the way it is right now.

you glide by,

little miss perfect.

yep, everything is okay for you,

nothing ever goes wrong,

you're always right,

you told me yourself.

so why don't you shut the hell up,

and stop complaining?

you attention seeking bitch.

because right now?

I can't even call you my friend,

and life's a bit like,

once upon a time, the end.

vain, just another pet name.

you can sit there and cry,

and tell me that it's my fault,

but honey, it's not changing the fact that you,

after everything,

still walked away,

and still wanted me to forgive you.

but, after it all,

you're still gone and that's not changing.

sometimes, you make it impossible.

if I told you I loved you,

would it move you enough to even,

act as though you've heard?

maybe if I scream loud enough,

you'll take the time to hear me.

maybe if I cry hard enough,

you'll take the time to notice.

but we both know,

no matter how much I hurt,

it's over.

and done.

and hurting doesn't bring it back.

will you get out of my head already?

& never have I sat here for so long,

trying to forget,

the only person who makes me,

ever feel any better about who I am right now.

because, I swear,

if you can't get someone out of your head,

they're supposed to be there.

but he doesn't believe that.

he thinks that's a load of bull.

and right now,

I do too.

but I'm still sitting here,

listening the the same old lines,

wondering when he's going to understand,

that falling in love with my bestfriend,

is hurting me more than anything.

and I'm still waiting,

for him to realize,

that he was always the only one,

that really made me truly smile.

that really made me happy.

yeah, I'm still sat here waiting...

we can't pretend forever.

I will never let you fall.

I'll stand up with you forever.

I'll be there for you through it all.

Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

if I went away,

would you miss me?

or take me for granted,

and assume I'll come back?

because I want you to know now,

if I walk away,

I'm not coming back.

not this time.

so, baby, maybe,

this will teach you that,

you never know what you really have until you've lost it.

and hopefully, it will remind you,

to take better care,

of your best belongings.

do you remember when we were just kids?

you say, you say that we're all tied up,

and wrapped around in useless, useless states of mind.

but at the same time we're still young,

we have the time to realize that we were young.

because I know, whatever happens,

you'll take it as,

"you're too young to really understand"

but, I do understand.

just the same as you.

so don't tell me,

that I don't.

when all in all,

I do.

number two.

I never knew, 

I never knew that everything was falling through,

That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, to turn and run,

When all I needed was the truth.

because I know, after everything and everyone has left,

you will still be there.

my support, my friend, my believer.

because, you after everything, still believe in,

me.

if we run away, will you promise to love me forever?

I know, a place where we could run to,

A place where nobody knows you,

They won't know who we are.

you learn to live,

you learn to love,

you learn to forgive,

you learn to forget.

 

but through everything,

I've learnt to live, with you far away.

I've learn to love you, with you far away.

I've learnt to forgive, even when I want to kill myself.

and I've learnt that through everything,

you must never ever forget those that mean most.

nadine ong,

you mean most.