wishful thinking.

you know maybe, if you were actually sorry,

I might be a little more forgiving.

but, the thing is, you throw the word around,

as if it were a name.

because this time,

sorry isn't good enough.

cute is what we aim for.

you're kind of just, always there.

and I like it.

i love you, i love you not.

for every girl with a broken heart, there's a boy with a glue gun.

if that were true, 

I don't think life would be the way it is right now.

you glide by,

little miss perfect.

yep, everything is okay for you,

nothing ever goes wrong,

you're always right,

you told me yourself.

so why don't you shut the hell up,

and stop complaining?

you attention seeking bitch.

because right now?

I can't even call you my friend,

and life's a bit like,

once upon a time, the end.

vain, just another pet name.

you can sit there and cry,

and tell me that it's my fault,

but honey, it's not changing the fact that you,

after everything,

still walked away,

and still wanted me to forgive you.

but, after it all,

you're still gone and that's not changing.

sometimes, you make it impossible.

if I told you I loved you,

would it move you enough to even,

act as though you've heard?

maybe if I scream loud enough,

you'll take the time to hear me.

maybe if I cry hard enough,

you'll take the time to notice.

but we both know,

no matter how much I hurt,

it's over.

and done.

and hurting doesn't bring it back.

will you get out of my head already?

& never have I sat here for so long,

trying to forget,

the only person who makes me,

ever feel any better about who I am right now.

because, I swear,

if you can't get someone out of your head,

they're supposed to be there.

but he doesn't believe that.

he thinks that's a load of bull.

and right now,

I do too.

but I'm still sitting here,

listening the the same old lines,

wondering when he's going to understand,

that falling in love with my bestfriend,

is hurting me more than anything.

and I'm still waiting,

for him to realize,

that he was always the only one,

that really made me truly smile.

that really made me happy.

yeah, I'm still sat here waiting...

we can't pretend forever.

I will never let you fall.

I'll stand up with you forever.

I'll be there for you through it all.

Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

if I went away,

would you miss me?

or take me for granted,

and assume I'll come back?

because I want you to know now,

if I walk away,

I'm not coming back.

not this time.

so, baby, maybe,

this will teach you that,

you never know what you really have until you've lost it.

and hopefully, it will remind you,

to take better care,

of your best belongings.